Gotta get a car.
Gotta pay for college.
Gotta pay rent.
Money money money.
Make. It. Stop.
Hi, my name is Mia and I'm a sixteen year old girl and I have no idea where I'm going with my life. Although I do know that I'm running out of time. In a few months I'll be seventeen. Then a year after that I'll be 18 aka an "adult". Um, no thank you.
Every other day my mother sits me down with that "look" on her face. You know the one. The one where you know you're going to be sitting for a while, so you better get comfortable. I have a bunch of different people telling me a bunch of different things. Actually, no, that's not true. I have my parents saying "The time is now. What are you plans.". Then I have everybody else saying "You're sixteen! You have plenty of time. Focus on enjoying your adolescence."
Obviously, I want to listen to the latter.
But the pressure is sinking in. Less than two years and I'll be considered an adult. What do I have to show for it? A bunch of mixed up plans and a basically empty bank account? That doesn't sound very promising. I know that I have to do things differently, but I have no idea where to start. I guess I could start with a job. Then I could get a car. Then I could save to "have my own life" as my mother likes to put it. That basically means moving out and being on my own.
These last few years have been flying by way to fast and I would really like to find the pause button. I'm not ready to leave the carefree part of me behind, but I know to accomplish moving forward, that I don't really have a choice. There is either the side where I put on my game face, or the side where you can't tell if I'm really sixteen or five. It's really frustrating that I can't have both and still be taken seriously.
I'm not in a hurry to leave my highschool years behind, but it's coming up fast whether I want it to or not. Change is gonna come and I've got to either adapt and survive or stay put and fail at life. Neither sound fun.
Now if you'll excuse me, I've had enough anxiety about the future for one day. If you need me, I'll be in my blanket fort coloring.
